This year has been such difficult for me, cuz i am pregnant of twins. And my body feel not so good all the time, though it didnt happpen any unconfortable. I feel body is unusual and admire other girls who were in nice clothes and walking gently. More worse is i am always afraid of the time for giving birth, i wonder how hard it would be, just the time giving birth. and wonder how the doctors will treat me, and how babies will be, and so on. These days i feel my body is so heavy and cannt be in good clothes. I wanna to ask my leader for maternity leave, but we only have three monthes for maternity leave, so i still have to go to work to prolong the time untill at the end of November. I cannt eat well and sleep well. just like a illness girl. i tried my best to be feel great, it do helps sometimes. What in my mind these days is if i should normal childbirth or caesarean birth? if i were giving birth one baby, i do wanna normal childbirth. but now thing is i am in special situation. i am puzzled.

i dont feel well these days, and always wanna have something,but after had,i would feel vomitting and disgusting.

How do you say if i change my work from governmental job to to be a teacher? I became a governmental worker from 2009. but now have to change work. cuz being a teacher is my initial dream. Besides, my husband teahes in another county and i have to move there, so taking a new exam to become a Teacher is neccesary for me now and have to abandon my governmental work. It really needs guts to take action. Thus, i can be with my husband and can go to somewhere in summer or winter holidays. But Sometimes, i really feel upset about if i cannt pass the exam and fail to become a Teacher.

Working in office is sometimes interesting, funny and even boring. Thus, i wanna give my dream a try. i dont wanna let it dispared. I dont tell my dream now, cuz it makes me feel that the dream is much difficult to make it come true if i tell it out, so i will share it with you at the end of this year. but it related to school and further education. i just hope to get there when i can at this age. time waits nobody, so you see. i have to do it now,just now, not tomorrow. fight for dream, i think it is worth to fight for.

i was graduated in2009 and it's been five years up to now,huh? though, i have been trying my best to work hard and made some progress in work, i am still on the starting line while others who joined work after me are flying and got higher position. i feel unfair and sometimes unhappy about this, but sometimes i think i should adapt to this kind of environment, cuz people might know how is it. Besides, i wont be hungry and dying even if i would still be on the atarting line. On the contrary, what i should care about is how to makeself happy without any support from heads. Thanks for reading

something happened during the lunar new year that my bf came to visit my home and so did i. Unfortunately, when i back to my home from his, his family didnt agree with our relationship and suggested to broke up cause of long distance(it takes about 5 hours from my bf place to mine). my bf and i both feel disperated and heartbroken. he doesnt know wether he should be with me or listen to his parents. since we keep in touch for more than two years, he also cannt broke up and cannt careless his parents' advice either, so he says he wanna go to somewhere to make feel better. And says he loves me so much, so he went to his uncle's for some better advice, and his uncle adviced that we should be together but mustnt abandon parrents if when day they agreed. We still dont know what plan to take, i think it will be too hard to get his parrents agreed. And i cannt imagine how long it will take to get them agreed. this is a doom's day for me. guys, give me some advice please.

it is near to my exam for master degree, i cannt set aside some time for reading books since these days there are lots of guests in my home, i feel upset that i cannt pass it and have to try again next time. The thing is that i dont wanna try it again next year. i hope to pass it this time, unfortunately, i am on and off my relationship with someone who gonna marry me during this new year. i dont know how to get rid of the tough things of my way. i feel really down now!

reading is such a good habit, i always think so. when i addicted in shopping too much or doing something extremely, i feel it makes nonsense. And start reading unexpectedly, cuz it makes me feel powerful and mainingful and can make me have a certain purpose to carry on. tells me what is right from wrong, what kind of life is mainingful. i really can get much from reading.

i notice this blog from a net friend, i'd like to start my blog, this is so nice