This year has been such difficult for me, cuz i am pregnant of twins. And my body feel not so good all the time, though it didnt happpen any unconfortable. I feel body is unusual and admire other girls who were in nice clothes and walking gently.

More worse is i am always afraid of the time for giving birth, i wonder how hard it would be, just the time giving birth. and wonder how the doctors will treat me, and how babies will be, and so on.

These days i feel my body is so heavy and cannt be in good clothes. I wanna to ask my leader for maternity leave, but we only have three monthes for maternity leave, so i still have to go to work to prolong the time untill at the end of November.

I cannt eat well and sleep well. just like a illness girl. i tried my best to be feel great, it do helps sometimes.

What in my mind these days is if i should normal childbirth or caesarean birth? if i were giving birth one baby, i do wanna normal childbirth. but now thing is i am in special situation. i am puzzled.