24 years in… and it is still unclear for me how my life would unfold... I can't see the next 4 to 5 years

how my life will be/ or at least how I would want it to become. It was pretty easy during the past, mainly

because everyone/ most of us were doing it just the same. You get your education, you do your

sports/ curriculum, you past your exams and there you go, step after step pretty much laid it out.

Challenge was to score and achieve the best and unleashing potential.

Things doesn't seem so easy now, 5 years plan don't quite work anymore and I'm still searching for

that drive and challenge that comes knocking and fired me up. I hate feeling lazy and all restless,

I need something. SOMETHING BIG that could keep my mind focus for long hours and occupied

and tired me out, by the night when I hit the sack, I would feel all satisfied with a wide grin in my

face knowing I'm doing something good.

In fact, throughout the years ever since I started my university I felt I kinda had it. But lost it somehow

intermittently. Goals and target were set at the very beginning, and I was quite focus throughout, I wonder

off somewhere in between but then I got it done at the very end but I'm not proud as I don't feel that

surge of energy that comes and I definitely feel I don't give my 100%. It drives me crazy till today.