hi, my friends，i am back. I haven't log into my blog for two years, time pass fast. Much has changed in mylife. Two years ago, I was worried about my work and life. Now, i am a mother. My baby is one year's old. I love him very much. He is very cute. After giving birth, I changed a lot. I become more optimistic, life is short, i must be happy. I still work in my last company，the new colleague is nice. I don't complain now，i learn to be content. Hope to make more friends here in china daily.

last year, i was always in struggle about life and work. Fortunately, my friend introduce me to a good boss and a i got a good job after I failed to enter my husband's company. the company is near where i live, less than ten minutes ' walk. workers there are very nice,giving me much support. thanks to all who helped me in 2013. In the beginning of year 2014, good luck continue to come, everything about life and work go smoothly. I plan to have a baby in the next half year, hoping there will be little affect to my work. Happy everyday seven color flower

Recently, I am always in bad mood, quarreling with my husband and becoming more and more bad-tempered. In the past, my husband is a always a good tempered man, now maybe affected by me, he becomes more similar to me, he losed patience about me now. Sometimes, I feel disappointed by myself. When I am in the office, i am kind to my workmates, I have good patience, good temper, and obedient. But when I am at home, I have a completely different charactor, shouting and complaining unreasonly. Though i feel sorry for my husband and knowing he does nothing wrong, I just don't want to admit my fault. I try to change my temper when at home, but just failed once i am unhappy. Last month, my husband begin to invest one kind of finacial mangement product. He wacthed the software everyday after work, some times he earn small money, but most time he lose money, I complaint this everyday. Because the software is new to him, i think he should learn first, then operate.But he is too hurry to earn money by the software. And now we lose almost half of the money we invested. And what make me angry is that he think my compaint affect his dicision and lead to his money lost. I am extremely disappointed to him. I just don't want to talk to him.

This evening, my husband and I was walking around in the neighborhood after dinner，suddenly, a few small children, about five to six year's old, stepped into our way and shouted to us " Kiss ,kiss,kiss"，we were shocked and extremely embarrassed. It is first time we encounter such things. We didn't response to these little children，and continued walking. But they didn't give up and followed us, keeping asking us questions like " are you married?", " are you a couple"," A husband should kiss his wife, so you must kiss her." Realizing we would not response to them and take any action, they even threatened us that if we don't kiss each other, they won't let us go. Naughty children，I think in my heart. They know so many things in such a young age. We finally escaped from their “claws”，and went upstairs. What happened to today's children in China, they are so early-maturing, I am wandering whether they have any idea about what they are talking about. Maybe they know these things through TV. I remember in my childhood, little children never talk about such things. And we know these matters in a later age. Really surprised by these children today.

In the past few days, I was so busy and always worked over-time, what's more, the management of my company, a small -sized private Led lighting company, is in a mess, even without management, which make me tired working here. And the boss of this company has no tendency to develop foreign trade, all the orders come from the foreign trade company, so I can learn little here about foreign trade process. All these unpleasant things make me iritable these days, so I decide to leave this company and change a job. My husband works in a big company, where everything is formal and regular, when I first came to this city I sent my resume to his company, but I was refused beacuse the foreign trade department of that company didn't need new person. Last week I came to his company again, fortunately, their foreign trade department is open to new person, their leader interviewed me and was satisfied with my performance, but finally they refused me because of my age and the present state, they worried that I will become pregnant in the following one or two years after I enter their company, though I promise to them that I won't. But they are still worried. Because in their department, many female workers are in pregnancy, which is a headache to them. So they are sensitive to this. Maybe considering that my husband has been worked in the company for three years, the HR department arranged me to another department for interview, I passed the interview finally, but I am hesitating, because the job has little relevance with my major and with the foreign trade. My ideal job is related to foreign trade all the time after my graduation. If I accept this job, that will means that i have to give up my dreamed career. But working in my husband's company is stable and with less pressure, which attract me. I am thinking how to decide these days. Entering my husbang's compmay or find another job related to foreign trade. And actually, I am 26 year's old, I have a plan to have baby in two years, if I enter my husband's company, I can't have baby at least in first one year. So it is really a difficult desision to make. In addition, I am still in charge of much work in my company in present, I am wandering how to resign. I feel a little quilty if I leave so fast. I am struggling about these matters all the time these days. How to make the right decision ? How I wish someone can make the choice for me.

Dragon Boat Festival is on the way, Zongzi is popular in these days. Beacuse making and eating it is one way to celebrate this festival. Some of my friends working in the big company are on holiday now, while I am still at work. This is not the first time I mention this. But now I will not compaint it, for that I have been used to it. Although I can't change the situation, I can change my mood. So, Happy Dragon Boat Festival , my friends!

I am so busy today. All day in work except the lunch time. But, really have no idea of what i am busy with. What a mess ! Whatever, i am not in a bad mood today!Good Night!

it is sunday today, the only rest day for me in one week. I am going to have a good rest, cooking some deliciious food for my honey, but one call from my client destroyed all my plan. I dressed up and hurry up to the company, waiting for her to come, only to find that she wouldn't come. OMG, fuck, shit. Our company is small-sized, so i can't enjoy the holidays as others in a big company, because the boss never give us holidays according to the national's rule. I am in a restlessness state in these days. Everytime when i have to stay after the off-work time, I really want to kill someone in my heart. Don't be afraid, that's just my thought. But,instead, I pretend to be calm and smile to the boss and accept the work task he need me to finish.It seems he don't have the concept of working off time. I am so annoyed that i wanna to leave as soon as possible. It is not the result i want , because when i first come here, i have the passion to work well and improve myself. However, I hate the work pattern here. The salary is low, the work I do now do little benefit for me, so I think it is time to leave.