Suddenly,  I remeber this space my another home today.  I haven't come here for three years , it makes me feel surprise.      i don't know what i should write today.  i am only feeling why i haven't been here for so long time. i even can't remind many english words. these days it seems to make me forget english. i feel great regretful. I hope i can come and write  a little word for every week  from today.     cheer up !

     Since the blog was updated for July, I can't adapt to the updating about the blog of pages. I couldn't find many things that i could find them easily for the former.  I couldn't also see the readers to read my blogs. So I hadn't written again for these days.      I had hardly forgotten the blog, yesterday I received the telephone call for the interview. The interviewer reminded me to remember the english blog. Today  it has a little time to have a rest. So i opened the blog again. I found that the last blog had been the August fot this year. I have to sigh with feeling the time. It only stays for a few days for next year.  This year is a difficult year for most people. I hope it will be good for next year. Tomorrow will be the Christmas,  I hope that all people will be Merry Christmas.

    Today is the last day for Aug, I have come back the blog. I can't adapt to the update for the blog a little. I can't see the reader from the page of blog. I feel disappointed.     This month will be end. It is past qulickly , I feel that many things haven't been done. sometimes i am so anxiety that i don't know what i should do. I want to change the status, hope it is good for Sep.

When the sun rises in the morning,I have been the road for the office.When the stars are full of the sky in the night,I am the road for the my home.It has been so for ten years as if one day,Never stopping and never suspending.I feel tired and weary sometimes,And think whether I should stop my footstep or not.Or change another channel.But when I will turn back,I turn my head, the tears are full of my eyes.I stop the footstep that I will stride forward.When I see the road that has composed with the sweat and tear.Though it is still shapeless and twisted, rugged and uneven.Sometimes I don’t also know where the road should go,But I can’t also turn back so smartly.So continuing,So Insisting on,It becomes the normal of the life,Maybe it is the my life,Thinking about giving up and insisting on it at the same time.

This morning, I understood suddenly a thing that it had been my heart for a long time. The sudden understanding made me feel lost. If I wasn’t anxious very much for that thing to resolve, maybe it would have another a result. When things are slow, they will be round. When people are slow, they will be safe. Many things in the lives are important and worried, So we always want to resolve them early, the more anxious you are, the more bad you feel. You will focus on the spirit on the things and want to resolve them as quickly as possible. But in fact many things can’t be resolved as shopping. It needs you to be slow and look for the more way to resolve, to make the thing develop for a good reslut that you want. Maybe the procedure is a little long, it may make the people who often worry feel suffering. But the suffering is an exercise for us. It needs the wisdom and patience to resolve an important and anxious, but we often lack the patience to make the result to be opposite. However we can’t know that it is made by ourselves. We think it should be so. We are also depressed for the result, even we lose the confidence to ourselves. Until someday, when you look back the thing, you will find that you have chosen a stupid way to resolve that thing. At last, the thing seemed to be resolved, but the result isn’t what you want. So , anything develops to have its regularity, to resolve the thing also needs to according to its regularity. As the people don’t grow up at a moment, the flowers don’t open for a night. The live need the wisdom, it needs the patience the more.

This morning I heard the news that the fire had made 19 person to be lost their lives for fire fight the big fire of forest in Liangshan for Sichuan province. At that moment, I could say nothing, I only felt the tears to burst my eyes. The epidemic situation hasn’t still been end, the fire of forest is coming again. The last moment, We were happy for welcoming these angels in white who assisted the wuhan for fighting against the epidemic situation. The next moment, I heard the news that the firefighters died in the big Fire. My excited tears wasn’t still wiped dry entirely for these angels in white who came back safely. The sad tears have come down again for these firefighters who had lost their valuable lives. They all guard us with their lives. I want to salute for angels in white and firefighters, they are heroes. We all like to hear the heroes come back safely, we don’t want to hear the news that the heroes can’t come back. Because these heroes guard, we can work and live securly. So we must cherish our lives and live very well. For 2020, it is dogged by luck. Living of healthy will be the favour by the god. I hope that we can all cherish and treasure.

Tomorrow is the Saturday, I want to have a rest for this weekend. Because I have worked overtime for the last two weekends. I want to do what I want to do and relax. But It was the yesterday, the boss called me suddenly, he said he would come our department and talk some things with all people or me. I didn’t know what I should say at that time. I only felt to be tired. The boss likes the personals to work overtime, no matter it is the night or the weekend. Even if you have finished your work, he also want to see you to be the office, otherwise he thinks you haven’t finished the work or you haven’t done the work well. He also doesn’t believe you have work overtime if he doesn’t see you to be the office constantly.

It has been the midst of the March, the hot season of switch job。but because of the epidemic situation，the hot season seems to be a little cold for this year. Many Job seekers says that they doesn't have more chance to choose, the recruitment units can't also seek the right person. No matter the job seekers or recruitment units seem to be the status for waiting and seeing. Some people choose to look for the new job constantly, it makes these people lose their heart if they can't find the new job, they can't also put their heart on the current job. they will feel upset. if it is this status for long time, it will not be good for personal. Now the epidemic situation isn't end, personal can't change the situation for short time. so when you haven't the better choice, you may try your best to do the current things well. Maybe you will have new finding in the current job. you can also improve yourself by learning new knowledge in these days. when the epidemic situation will be end, you will have more confidence to find the more job.

For 2018, I registered the platform about Jianshu for writting. for the beginning, It was excited for me to write. furthermore I always wanted to contribute the essay to the special subject and hoped to have more readers. but after several failure for contribution, I lost my heart a little. later, because the work was very busy, I didn't write constantly again. it was only written casual. For 2019, I decided to write again. but I couldn't still insist constantly. In the end for 2019, I found it only had 56 chapters for two years. I felt it was a little. I wanted to make myself write every day, but it wasn't easy to do every day, sometimes when the work was very busy, it forgot easily. I found the function for the challenge to update every day in Jianshu. So i chose to challenge in February for 2020, when I chose to do so, it seemed to have a monitor for me. The updating every day became my a task. I must do it every day, otherwise i felt that i lost a thing. I insisted in writing every day, it made me felt to have some change for these days. Today it is the fortieth day for me to update. I want to record and remember. I will continue to insist. Someday i will also share the experience at here. I also hope i can update the English blog every day.

It was so slow to me to spend the February. but the March passes so quickly again. Today is the second day that we work in the office. Most days of the February, we worked at home. I dislike to work at home. It made the time be dim for on duty and off duty. It seemed to work for 24 hours. but for the boss, it seemed that you didn't work at home. He always thought to monitor you or consider to discount for your salary. you couldn't meet your colleagues in the reality. it impacted your communicate with colleagues. if you couldn't control yourself very well ,it also would impact your work efficiency. Sometimes you couldn't eat on time because of the work or ear casual and so on. So I want to go to office for the work. it make me feel normal for the work and life. though it still tired in office to work, I am still willing to work in the office. I hope all things to be good for the March.