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An entire month, I really felt confused and frustrate. Fortunately, being inspired by an article entile "Six Secrets of High-Energy People", I feel more better. I change my look with a short haircut, a perm, new black coat, a pair of brown shoes and a black watch. It's the first secret. Last weekend, I made a visit to my sister and their foreign trade company, watch a movie named " Beijing in Seattle" with my sister and her friends, the weekend end up with the movie's touching and funny story. it's the second secret. I dialed the telephone number on the business card of my old friend and we talked with each other in nearly two hours. I started to use Tencent's WeChat to send voice messages to friends. It's the third secret. My past is filled with regrets and failure that still cause pain. But from an emotional energy point of view, they are dead weights that keep me from moving forward. While they can't merely be throw away, I can only remind myself that whatever happened is in the past, and nothing can change that. Holding on to the memory only allows the damage to continue into the present. It's the forth secret. I used to endlessly think a decision over and found that having it hanging over my head is a huge energy drain. Every time I can't decide, I burden myself with alternatives. I try to quit thinking that I have to make the right decision, instead, make a choice and don't look back. It's the fifth secret. Smile more often. It's the sisth secret. The above secrets may be briefly summed up as follows "Do something new", "Reclaim life's meaning", "Put yourself in the fun zone", "Bid farewell to guilt and regret", "Make up your mind" and "Give to get".

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"They paid so little attention to my needs, but then I felt that their needs were so powerful that… It didn’t make me fell hurt or angry that they didn’t look into me." “Figure out my life. Do people really do that? Do they do that while they are falling down into a deep dark hole” “I was a good mom, wasn’t I ?” “She couldn’t take living straight. Why should I expect her to take dying. Isn’t dying the hardest thing anyone’s ever done?” “In a week, there would be no trace of her. But what did it matter?” “This wasn’t the real world. We really only lived in each other’s hearts.” “She lived in my heart. But I lived no where. I was all alone in the world.” “You’re 16 years old with 8th grade education.” “You’ve burned every bridge, you’ve worn out every welcome and everyone who’s ever believed in you. You’ve let down.” “My mother died of AIDS, she died a couple of months ago. It was real slap on the face. I guess I always thought that she was gonna get better and take care of me. It’s pretty stupid huh?” “You own an apartment? Yeah they like to do that. They keep people like me at the shelters, you know the people the patience. People with AIDS.” “I was so close to the skin now I can touch it. It would be a reach. It’s not impossible.” “I want to stand beside people beside walk and not be so far beneath them. I wanna go to Harvard and become every developed read all the best books. Then I found myself thinking. What if I just go crazy? I used my every potential to do that. I have to do it. I have no choice.” “I think people just get frustrated without harsh, life can be, So they’re spending their time dwelling on that frustration.We calling it anger. Keep their eyes shut to the wholeness of the situation. To all those tinny things that have come together to make it, what it is. Because I was turened so inward by mon and dad. I got chance to see how all the little tiny things come together make the final product. So I was never inclined to wonder why this or why that. I knew why.” “So you were lucky! But is there anything you change, if you were able? Yeah, I’d give it back. All of it. If I could have my family back.” “I forget the little things but still hard to carry alone. So that’s why I told you. That’s why I’ve told you my story. Now I can lay it out and burn it done, put it in the rest, then I can go on.” When I was a senior high school student, I watched the movie, Homeless to Harvard (The Liz Murray Story), which deeply impressed me. I've watched it countlesstimes. It’s the only film that ever brought tears to my eyes. What struck me most was her sense of life. Liz’s Story was appalling, and I also believe that it will has a good influence in the youth's growth while some have claimed self-help movies are actually bad for us by promoting 'false hope syndrome.' A few years have passed, I still inspired by Liz's story. I have learned a lot from Liz and her experience will inspire me forever. Life is full of troubles, when we have accepted all the losses calmly, we find to our surprise that none is not to be accepted. That is what she taught me. Despite her domestic quandaries, she was very fortitude indeed, but, at first, she still hard to carry alone although she had got into Harvard, got a job at the NYT and got an apartment. Outwardly she appear to be a female of courage, who knows what dark fears inhabit the mind of her. It takes great courage for her to carry out a great change. Having courage does not mean that there has not any dread but means that you can face it and conquer it. “How could I not do it?” in making this statement what distinguished Liz Murray was only that she had the courage to say what so many others believed. Furthermore, I was surprised at finding that Liz Murray is one of the movie’s producers. When you do a rather daring thing, you’ve just got to have the courage of your convictions. She showed the world what’s inside her heart. She taught us how to face our inner fear. In my heart, Liz Murray wins the best director Oscar.

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