I feel lonelier as time goes by.Is it because that I have grown up or that I have few friends in my life?It is time for me to find a girlfirend and get married.Most men at my age in my hometown have their children,but I am still single.
I went to college ,but my school is not famous and I am not a rich man.My major in my college is not English,but I love English so much that I have spent three years in my college learning English by myself.After my graduation from my college,I never gave up learning English by myself in my spare time after my working time.Now I realize English is and will be my favourite for the rest of my life.
Here is a letter that I wrote to a girl who didn't give me a second chance and I explained it to her why I asked her out.
Dear ***********，
The first time you met me,you were curious about that why I suddenly asked you out.Now I am giving you the answer to your question.I dated you because you had given me some English materials of TOEIC and I was thankful.I wanted to buy you something in return.When you agreed to go out with me and asked me whether there was a restaurant near the place where we were about to have a date,I was thinking "what a coincidence"and this was an opportunity that I could do something in return.I knew you were reluctant to have a date with me by the way you talked to me at the beginning of the date.I knew you and I would not have a future and maybe the first time I met you would be the last time,but I just wanted to do something in return so that I would not regret it after I married someone else.I admit it is my fault that I deleted your telephone number and QQ number,because I need a friend like you and I regret what I have done.
Have a good time everyday！
The following is some messages that I texted to a girl who is my old classmate and an old friend.
message one:I like a girl whose last name is the same as mine .She lives in Shenzhen,Guangdong province of China.She wanted to change her job instead of being an English teacher.I advised her to continue to be an English teacher and she said I didn't know her life . Although she is not beautiful ,she is my old classmate and an old friend and I believe she is more responsible than those girls who are pretty .The girl whom I like ignores my existence ,but it doesn't matter,because I know I will forget her as time goes by .When I marry someone else or she ties the knot with a man except me ,it will be the time that I stop disturbing her.I just want her to know that I have showed my feelings although she had said: in one sentence,it has no possibility between you and me .
message two:When you said "I am not your cup of tea "to me ,I know you should have said"I am not the girl of your type" or "I am not the girl whom you like ,because I have learned you are interested in one of my best friends ."
message three:She said:"I return your message for two reasons .One is to tell you don't waste your time and the other is that I chat with someone else at night .Do not text me again .I need my privacy .It is useless for a man whom I dislike to do some stuff in order to attract me.If my beloved one texts me everyday ,I will be happy .You are not the man of my type ."I don't know what kind of man I am yet .How can she know me so well?Good night !
message four:she said I am a maniac last night .Yes,I am.Most men are crazy when they fall in love with the girls whom they love .Maybe I am a maniac because I am begging for an opportunity that she will be more than my friend.Good night !
message five:
"What do you want exactly ?"If she asks me again ,I will say "I want you to be my girlfriend 、then to marry me and finally to be my wife .That's all".Good night !
message six:Please forgive and forget what I have said in the messages ,but what is done is done.If a man says that "I want you to be my girlfriend、then to marry me and finally to be my wife "to a girl whom he does't know,every normal girl will call him a maniac.Maybe what I have said will ruin the friendship that you and I used to have .Now the only thing that I can do is asking for your forgiveness and I hope you will marry the one ,but I mean every word that I have expressed in English although you and I aren't meant to be together!
I don't know how to make a girl like me and how to love a girl,but I do know how to take my responsibilities.
this is me
