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In the deep nights, all of the these are still fresh in my memeroies,her beautiful face,her smooth body,her plentiful breasts,her warm moist and flexible or tight vagina, her gentel and soft moanings,even though it has passed six years.But whenever I think of these I will feel sorrow about it..The following is my real story that I have never told the others.Today I post it here, my aid is to get my friends' opinions about this kind of loving affairs.Am I right or not? Am I a bad guy? If this kind of thing happen to you,what will you do?|
About six years ago before I married, I recognized my fore-girlfried.She was so pretty and gentel,and she was a good talker.We had too much to talk together.As soon as I glanced her the first time,I felt I fell in love with her.She told me she had the same feelings to me when she first met me.We loved each other so deeply.We felt if we left each other,we would be never be alive.One and a half months later after we met,I had carnal knowledge with her for the first time. I was forced to do that. She kissed me and took off my clothes. We were so crazy about that and never stopped to do it.Beacause of her I found sex was so terrific.
I am a very traditional and responsible man,I really didn't want to do it before marriage.After doing that,I always complained myself.From then on ,we did it for about forty times before we had to say good-bye to each other. Nearly each time I was forced to make love with her.I found that she was not a maiden.She told me she had done it with her fore-boyfriends for many times,that was really I usually wondered why she was so skillful on sex later.She even told me she just played with me because I was a pure boy.During the several months,the relationship between us is lasting with making love since we did it the first time.But it seemed the only exciting thing between us was sex.She was a countryside girl,she had no job and had no place to live in in the city.Each time she came,she insisted to stay with me.But I had to work,I had to gain money to support us espcially our future lives,she didn't care about this,she even effected my work.Most of my fellow workers were talking about this then,I found I was taken down by others.Even worse,her temper was very quite stubborn,she almost never listened to my opinions about somethings.She said that she had worked in hotels and restaurants. Her sexrual skills made me wonder she must have worked on sex service.She seemed to accept my ideas.
So, several months later,the only happiness between us was sex.But I still loved her, I took good care of her,I bought clothes and food for her.She also loved me,and she said I was her and her families' pride. I began to think of the marriage ,and I really wanted to marry her. But by degress,I felt I couldn't accept her at all.At last,we had to say good-bye very very sadly.If one of the following points was acceptal,maybe now she is my wife:
1.Her bad temper made me tired.
2.She had no job.
3.She was no longer a maiden before we recognized.
4.After about forty times' sexual intercourse with her without condoms,she wasn't pregnant.That made me satisfied.
I thougt if we didn't seperate and we married,perhaps the marriage would not last too long,or we would live in sorrow all day.So the best way was to be part company.After her leaving ,I was always throwing myself into sorrow and complaining myself.I am really a bad guy,I am really not responsibility,I hate myself... I should look after her for the whole life. Whenever I think of this,I will feel unhappy,though she had made me a real man,and taught me so much.I really hope she is happy with her own life now.
Am I a hateful man ? Did I settle my loving affairs correctly?May I cherish the memory of her forever? Really,all of her things and stories will never be got rid of from my memories until my death.