There was a period of time, when I found myself always in an unstable mood. I taunted at and squabble with my parents every time they held different views with me. I was addicted to overeating and wondering at night all alone. I kept asking myself what was wrong and how could I fix the situation.
Fortunately, it was a dream at one night happened to be the cure which brought me to the sunlight again.
In the dream world, as I rose up one morning, looking at the mirror, I saw the person in the mirror smiling at me. It was such a warm smile that I just forgot I was not smiling then. Meantime that girl inside the mirror just came out like a cloned me and held my hands, saying: “From then on, I will always be with you.”
Of course she kept her promise: both of us go to the canteen together, wonder in the sunshine, meet other people. She knew exactly what I was thinking about and what I wanted. She was always by my side, with that warm simile, and made me feel so secured and contented.
While even as I plunged into the dream world, there was a flash of thought stroke my mind: was I just dreaming? I could never have such a perfect friend like her. I was always alone. Yeah, it must be a dream, I told myself so, calmly and sadly.
After that, I woke up. And the sun was shining outside.There was no more trace of that girl.
As I have a habit to interpret some of the odd dreams of mine, I began to interpret this one. And shortly after I came up with a rather satisfied interpretation: I was lonely. I was so lonely that I dreamed of a friend who would stick to me. I was so lonely that I vented the frustration triggered by loneliness on my parents to whom I need not to hide my feelings. I was so lonely that I resorted to food to fill the big, empty hole in my spirit. I was lonely, but I was also ignoring the fact, that I was in want of friends.
Thanks to the dream, I found the kernel of my “mental” problem. The next step would be just to suit the remedy to the case: to make friends, maybe not for a lifelong purpose, but just a true and sincere friend at the moment will be enough.
A lucky dog I am, as I set to open my heart and communicate with peers nearby, I soon targeted a friend whom I can talk to and rely on; who helped me out of the dark days in my life. And now we became best friends.
I was thankful that I reacted to the dream so quickly and braved the true feelings in my mind so as not to make the situation worse .
However, it doesn’t stop here. Recently, I had another dream of a similar type: there was a handsome man who showed up in my life and said to me, “From then on, I will always be with you. ”
Oh, no!
Anyway, happy November, and happy the incoming Singles' day.
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